Saturday, October 18, 2014

WOW 7yrs Old Now

WOW yesterday you turned 7yrs old.  I have now missed over half of your life and I am so sorry for that my son.  I am still fighting hard to bring you home and will never stop doing so. 

Yesterday was an incredible day.  I made a butter pecan cake for you.  I remember how much you loved it when I would make butter pecan cookies.  So thought you would enjoy this cake a lot.  Your little brother had a blast getting messy, just like you used too, licking the beaters from you icing.  He was so messy when he was done.  Hands, arms, chest and hair along with his face, covered in it.  I know you would have laughed so hard to see him like that.

Also another great surprise.  A friend of ours had her baby on your B-day. We thought it was so special that you are sharing your b-day with her little guy too.  When we went to visit them we took a very much loved, homemade, receiving blanket that I had used for your older brother, yourself and for your little brother.  As I held the new baby I could not help but think of when I first held you.  How small and adorable you were.  I remember cuddling with you in the hospital and barely taking my eyes off of you.  You were attached to me at the hip from then on till you were 5 months old.

Last night I cried as I thought of all your firsts that I am missing.  How you must wonder why I didn't want you or gave you up.  I have always wanted you, I have always fought to have this injustice fixed and you returned home.  I hope soon you will know that.  Your picture is on our family wall with everyone else's.  Your little brother already knows who you are and when asked your name he will climb up on the couch and point you out.  He also loves to watch the past videos we have of you. 

You may not be here right now but you and your brother are talked about every day.  You are very much a part of our home and family.  No matter how many people lie to you or try to force you to be theirs, you will always belong here.  This is your real home, we are your real family.  You are loved.   You are missed.  And we plan for the day we can truly celebrate your b-day with us.  We hope this is the last one we will miss.  We hope the people who have you will finally get a conscious and a heart and do the right thing.  How they can sleep at night know you were stolen from your real loving family is beyond me.  They are committing the worst act of cruelty to you and your brother that I can imagine and are ok with it because they care about their status of "parents" more then they care about what is morally right for both of you. 

We will be together again my son.  I promise.  Happy B-day my 7yr old little man. 

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